There are times that I’m just overwhelmed at the circumstances at hand and there are times that I tend to shush myself despite all the things that are happening in my life. However, today’s no different at all for I just left my mouth shut inspite all the things I’ve heard from the people around me. I just keep my silence because I don’t like to be involved in their mess. I know you don’t understand me here but to tell the whole story would end up me blabbering for no reason. Well, I guess I would. Maybe in time I will but for now I need to doze off for I need to prepare myself for tomorrow’s asshattery here at work, 
. Nighteee everyone!
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I Promise…
Here I am again with my fake promises. I know promises are made to be broken but I’d try my very best to update my sites. I know it’s very far from possibility but I’d try to keep you posted here. I promise…
The Good Updates
Recently I can feel a little bit sense of satisfaction at work and I can say that despite everything that happened with me here everything’s turning out just fine. With all the challenges I’ve surpassed here, there is nothing more memorable than this place because I had so far all my shocking truths discovered here in this land of opportunities. In a good sense, there are so many things that makes me realize so far especially relating to the importance of family. Well, I’m just happy and super blessed that I’m raised well by my loving parents and they really showed us a good example unlike what I’ve seen in this weird place. Whew then again it doesn’t shock me anymore nor am I culturally surprised at how OFWs like me behave and make decisions while being here abroad. Though it is really true that it’s not easy to work away from our comfort zones but it’s a one man challenge to overcome every single trial that’s come to trick his life in so many treacherous ways.
I Hope this Year’s gonna be AWESOME! :)
I don’t know what lies ahead but I’m hoping that this year’s gonna be awesome for everyone. There is not much on my list of goals this year but I’m keeping faith that I can achieve all of these, for sure in His right time where no one can say no. His will is after all the best of all. I’m sure there are so many challenges and trials along the way as much as blessings are bountiful. God know every person’s desires though and it’s what keeps me going on each and every day much more that I’m away from home now. Still, I believe that this year’s gonna be awesomely great!
Lessons Learned
I’ve been having a great vacay so far here at my hometown. There has been a lot more things to do yet so little time left for me to meet all my friends. I really want to meet them all but I think I won’t be seeing them maybe some but not all. I’m rest assured though to come back here next year hopefully this would be my last contract abroad. If ever I would go abroad again I would NEVER EVER DARE to go in the Middle East again! Even though I’ve learned a lot more lessons there, my trials and misadventures cannot far outweigh the lessons I’ve got. I just don’t want to commit the same wrong mover ever again. This reminds me of my Canadian friend Trent who actually said to me that I should do whatever makes me happy. I’m DEFINITELY NOT HAPPY there so I won’t dare come back and work ever again. Once is enough. Twice is too much. The succeeding more cases would be plain IDIOCY! 
Ten More Months to Spend Away from Home…again?!
Oh now, not again! Right now, I’m so bugged with the idea of coming back to the place where I never wanted to come and work. If not because of gaining more experiences as a teacher, I wouldn’t risk my life there. It’s my adventurous nature which enlightens my curiosity to risk everything that comes my way. It just occurred to me while I was staring blankly on the wall this morning that I’ve been away from home for almost four years now yet I still want more. I feel that as I earn more, I also have so many things to accomplish in my life. Of course, being human as I am never feels satisfied of what I have; instead, yearning for more is the goal of some, me included. I just want to see my family most especially my parents to be happy for it’s the only way I can repay them for rearing me all these years. I won’t be where I am now without their undying love and support. That is why I am making the best out of my singlehood for I know that priorities will change a little bit when I turn into the next chapter of my life. Sighs.
Confusing Schedule
Today’s a great day though I’m quite confused with the schedule at first for I was assigned to be with another one when in fact I need to be with my own class, urgh! This is the downside of this organization here; we don’t know who’s who to listen and follow. Sometimes I ask myself why am I here in the first place but it all boils down to my decision to come here. If only I had stayed in China back then, I would have greatly enjoyed my days there til now. Well, there isn’t any point of crying over spilled milk as I am now here. I don’t have any choice so as to say but actually I have my power to decide for myself and the future. I am the captain of my ship no matter what they say. I have to make a tough decision sooner or later this school year or before it ends as I don’t really have the enthusiasm to work for this company. Honestly, this is so far the most stressful and worst experience in my career abroad. Sighs.
Indebtedness
Perhaps, I’ve shared with you that she’s been with her friend for couple of months now and the thing is that she’s been feeling so indebted with her friend’s family for taking very good care of her from food and yeah almost everything. She considers them as her second family; that is, abroad. Truly, thanks won’t be enough for her to say to them not even doing some chores at their house. Her close friend is being such a very loving mom to her and she treats her like her real daughter. She is even invited to stay with them for the next year so she won’t have bad trips and misadventures at her dangerous flat. Urgh! When will her challenges end? This is her question every time she faces a problem. Truly, this made me think too, will her problems end soon? Or will she keep on trying to solve every challenge along her way? Huh, sad face.
Today’s My Birth Day
Today’s my 28th birthday and seriously I cannot think I’m at my age where every friend, family, and or relative asks every now and then this sorta annoying question – “Aren’t you getting married yet?” Oh dear! Oh not yet, I suppose as I’ve never felt that I need to settle down for good in one place hopefully happy ever after. I know this is somewhat fairy tale like but all I want to do for now is just enjoy every moment I am far from my comfort zones. Being so free and happy-go-lucky without thinking of what to do or any routine and who would say no or yes if in case I like to go somewhere or yet do something is like a piece of chocolate cake on a golden platter now, . As what my friend says before we parted ways last year that there’s only a thing I need to consider every time I’m confronted to make a decision; that is, to do ask myself and do whatever makes me happy. I think it’s been doing great in my life. Smiles. “Do what makes you happy, my friend.”
So Sad and Nostalgic
I’ve been so down these days it seems that I’ve been really wanting to go home as soon as possible. Been sulking, thinking, and always catch myself with a long vision of something with sometimes find myself not looking at something at all. Totally absent-minded at times. There has reasons for this kind of thing, I said to myself. Not until I opened my YM account after a day’s tough work at school had I known that one of my dear friends and colleague in my previous company where I worked at already passed away just today at noon. I don’t know what to say and do right now because I really want to see her for the last time but here I am again so far away from home as I’m working abroad at this moment. All I can do is keep on wishing and of course thinking and praying for her soul to travel peacefully. I know she understands me. Sighs… 